just pray that i’ll be annoyed enough with you to let the hate i once possessed against you fire up in me again. and with that, maybe, just maybe i’ll be able to let you go. because like i have always said, it isn’t anywhere possible, and personally i have no doubts that it can’t happen.

today..

well u’re not sitting beside me no more. well since u sorta brought it up. so i guess i was pissed for awhile. ripping things, slamming doors,books,anything, kind of pissed. couldn’t look at you at all for quite awhile. well isn’t all repeating itself again..? kind of staying far away from me..? FREAK FRIKETY FUCK. that’s the feeling..

reminiscing over the memories eats my soul.

i miss you. alot. beyond imaginable. yearning of my heart. well come to think of it, all the time. just that.. u never believe a thing i say. i don’t lie. so u shouldn’t think urself gullible for believing my words. FOREVER. that’s all you need to believe.

is there nothing left for me within you.? is it a risk to take me yours, you mine .? im pretty much all i can be now. this is pretty much who i am. how i am. what i am. there won’t be anymore drastic changes nor gradual ones either. im done with all that. im staying here. this way.

how ‘bout you?